Who knows the ways of the heart?
The Page of Cups is the third of the Pages to turn up in the last tens days. Lots of “beginner’s energy” in the mix.
This particular Page shows a shyness and insecurity in approach and posture. “Hat in hand, heart on my sleeve, I offer my cup.”
I have been feeling insecure lately myself, especially this week, for reasons that aren’t completely clear to me.
I’ve lived much of my life with an odd duality. Like this Page, I have tended to approach with my heart on my sleeve, open and vulnerable. I have also tended to hide away the innermost part of my heart, even from the people who are closest to me. This results in a lot of pushing and pulling with others. I long to draw them close, until they get too close, and then I push them away.
Maybe the Page of Cups is an encouragement not to push away.
I would like to be more in tune with the part of myself that is secure, perfect and eternal just as it is. I suspect that it is from that place of security that one can learn to truly offer the world an open heart.